Lessons From A Teenage Dirtbag

Heya,

Now schools over and I finally have time to get back into blogging again, I'm always much more inspired during the Summer hols anyway. I though it would be a nice idea to look back on a recent situation which has taught me a lot.. so here's a letter to a Teenage Dirtbag.

Dear Teenage Dirtbag,

That name is mainly to protect your identity but to be honest you are the biggest teenage dirtbag I know. Nevertheless you did impacted my life and did teach me a lot of valuable things.

Number 1. Openness

So technically what we had wasn't exactly a monogamous relationship but we were defiantly seeing each other. I repeatedly denied I was in a relationship at all as I was adamant be 'single for summer'.My friends frequently reminded me an open relationship is still a relationship.

During the early stages of our "relationship" we were forced to be very open and honest with each other almost straight away, I had to share some stuff not even all of my closet friends know and as this was all in the early days this was hard for me. But you handled it like a fucking pro and I will always admire you for that regardless of what people say about you.

Number 2. Honesty 

Usually I would consider myself an honest person but wow did we break that barrier.You are hands down one of the most confident and honest people I know. You taught me not to be afraid of the consequences and just ask the hard questions like " what are we?" " Where is this going?" It makes me smile to see my friends almost squirm in fear at the though of being so blunt, I want to thank you for teaching me that this was ok. 

Number 3. New Lifestyle

If I can be very close minded here for two seconds and stereotype you. I never though in a million years I would be attracted to your" type" and to be honest I never knew much about your "type" either. Thank you for opening my eyes to a new lifestyle.

Number 4. How to be treated

You have shown me how I can be treated and you let me come to the conclusion that that was not good enough. You have taught me I deserve better then ignored messages, one word answers and secrets.

Number 5.Facing fears

You don't know this and you never will but you helped me face some fears. You don't know I have Obesssive Compulisve Dissorder and you don't know many of my compulsions and intrusive thoughts are based around sexual fears. You were extremely patient and respected every boundary of mine. You held my hand, apologised when you weren't to blame and asked me 101 times If I was ok I will always be grateful for this and consider myself very lucky. Thank you for helping me overcome this.

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Number 6. Vulnerability 

My two biggest fears are: 1. not achieving everything I want to in life and 2. being vulnerable.

So many times throughout our "relationship. I have sat by the phone an anxious mess after I have laid it all out. I hate how easily you can control my emotions, I guess its a fear of being hurt. I'm still trying to improve on this but I appreciate you not breaking my heart, thanks for that.

Number 7. Having a Good time 

Trust me I know how to have a good time. I think our relationship worked best when we were together out at night. I think it was meant to be a whirlwind of fun & adventure and trying new things. It didn't have the actual elements to make a good everyday relationship that would last a long time. When we spent time together we both just constantly laughed and danced, you wouldn't shut up asking why I was smiling so much. Thank you for those memories I'll always look back fondly on them.

Number 8. Going with the flow 

Im a strong J (which stands for Judgement) in the Myers - Briggs personality test which means I like to quickly make decisions. If you talk to any of my friends they will tell you I had to be stopped from rushing into decisions regarding our relationship. Luckily I have great friends who encouraged me to go with the flow and see what happens. You even said it yourslef " Shur we'll see what happens" which relieved me in that moment. However I defiantly struggled with needing constant clarity and reassurance, which I know I need to work on.

Number 9. Motivation 

You have motivated me to work hard and achieve my dreams. Mainly due to the fact you aren't motivated whatsoever, I've seen you throw away oppertunaties and not make the most of your time. I guess I've learned not only from your strengths but also from your flaws and I hope you have leaned from mine too

Thank you for everything. See you next week.

Love always,

Nixie

What I learned in 2015

Hey guys,

Today I will be sharing with you a few lessons I have learned throughout 2015.
I keept the list quiet short as I only wanted to include the more meaningful lessons of 2015.
Grab your snorkel cause shits bout to get deep.

Reducing Mental Health Stigma - An Interview

Hey Guys,

As you might know mental health week was in October.You also might know that mental health is a passion of mine. I was lucky enough to be able to interview Sorcha Lowry the campaign manager of seechange.ie to bring you some information.
Heres what she told me..

Autumn Wishlist

Hey Guys,
Its been a while, going back to school has been busier then anticipated.
I am currently ignoring the studying I have yet to do for my Christmas tests.

This is currently my favourite time of year, Halloween, Autumn, Christmas & New Year. I feel like everyone's is in a great mood from October till December. In Autumn all the clothes in the shops become 100% more comfortable and I want everything in sight. So I have decided to share with you my Autumn wishlist..

October Ramblings

Hey Guys,

I hope you all are having a lovely evening. I'm just about to go do some studying.
I don't have much time to work on blog posts as of late. Going back to school has been crazy busy. I'm currently swarming in homework & studying. Its hard to find time to blog. But when I do have an evening off during the week I want to spend it catching up with family & relaxing.

However I have been working on a few different blog posts this weekend but I just need to take some photos & edit them before I can upload them. Basically I wanted to blog this evening & didn't want to wait until at least next weekend until those posts were finished.

So here's whats been on my mind..

Liebster Award 2.0 - Sarah Hyland, Galway City & New York

Hey Guys,

 So recently I got nominated to do the Liebester Award by the lovely Sinéad from The Travel Bible. Today I am finally getting around to answering her questions.

Autumn Haul - Forever 21, Lush, Boots etc.

Hey Guys,

I hope you are all having a good day.

I know I have been away for a little while - my life has been a little hectic recently with school.

But today I have a haul for you.

So a while ago I went to Dublin shopping with my mam, sister & my best friend. It was such a cute little day out. For so long, I have been wanting to have a day in Dublin solely dedicated to shopping.We devised a plan to start with the shops that we didn't have in Galway, first.

Starting with ..

A Poem To Raise Awareness

The sunlight shines on his pasty white skin,
He needs to get drunk someone pass him the gin,
Hopefully tomorrow he'll love his body,
He doesn't have time to make hatred a hobby.
Just skip one meal no on will know,
It might help my six pack to grow
Inadequate & ugly unfashionable & grey
Thanks be god tomorrows a new day.

My M.A.C. Lipstick Collection

L-R Shy Girl, Please Me & Rebel

Hey Guys,

I have been asked for swatches of some of my MAC lipsticks & its taken a while but today I am going to be showing you my lipstick collection.

Summer | Roadtrips & Reflection

Hey Guys,

Today I want to talk about road trips. I recently went on a road trip with my parents. We were the whole day travelling.I have always been a fan of long car journeys. But this one was a lot of fun. Naturally when you are away from the internet & in the midst of the mountains a lot of things cross your mind.

Driving through the mountains can be very calming and peaceful & I really recommend it if you are an anxious person or if you have a lot on your mind.
I was the whole day without the internet just me & my thoughts for 5 hours in the car. However I did bring a few things to keep me company.

5 Things to Be Excited About

Hey Guys,

Whenever I'm feeling unmotivated or down I thing of all of the little things that I am looking forward too. 

So Today I though I'd share with you a list of 5 things that I am excited for.

15 Facts about me

Hey Guys,

Today I decided to share with you some facts about myself. 

Hopefully you get to know me a little better.

1. My favourite colour is green & has been since I was 8 years old.

2. My favourite time of year is Halloween.

3. I'm 5'3.

4. I'm very passionate about mental heath & mental illness awareness.

5. If someting is bothering me I cant do anything unless I sort it out in my head.

6. I hate feet, I don't want to see or touch them.

7. I'm single.

8. I'm an extrovert.

9. Harry Styles is my celebrity crush husband.

10. I Almost always creatively express any strong emotion I feel.

11. Because of this I have random poems, songs & journal entry's laying about.

12. I had braces for almost 5 years.

13. My favourite book is The Perks of being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky.

14. I read my horoscope almost every night despite not really believing it.

15. Youtube or Tumblr are my favourite apps.

Leave me a fact about you in the comments

Happy BEDA!

Love always,

Nixie xx

Ashley Benson Inspired Fashion Favourites

Hey Guys,

Recently I have been loving Ashley Benson's style, mainly her sleek ponytail & dewy make-up look.
I would probably wear this look

An Open letter to My Future Husband

Dear Future husband,

First of all I really hope no one digs this post up on our wedding day because that would be embarrassing. But if they do Hi everyone I hope your all having a good day & don't forget to tell me how good I look ;)

On a serious note, I'm dying to know where we meet oh God please say it wasn't Tinder..I feel like it was some random pub or nightclub. Where are you from? Ireland more than likely. I have my money on Roscommon. When do I meet you? According to my horoscope I meet you very soon but I call bullshit. Hopefully not that soon I'm not ready yet I barely know how to put on a wash or do taxes.

God what's love like? Have you been heartbroken before? Have I? It crazy to think you are living some where going about your every day. Living the stories that you'll someday share with me.

Ohh Whats our wedding like? Did dad walk me up the aisle? I hope he did. Are my siblings there? My nephews? Do I have a niece? How many? I cant wait for our wedding ( why am I getting emotional?)

July Favourites 2015

Hey Guys

Today I'm going to be showing you the things I have been loving throughout the month of July.

Starting with..

Positivity with Rachel

Hello to all who have not met me, my name is Rachel and you can find me over on Where She Goes. Nixie has very kindly asked me to speak on her blog about the importance of positivity but first, if you don’t mind a bit about me.

Top left: That is myself wearing a bin bag, your welcome.

Top right: I am a book and tea addict and couldn't be happier about it.

Bottom left: Exercise is embarrassment and torture and I plan on never participating in such activities

Bottom right: Now there's something I'll participate in!

Seriously though...

I am a twin and when he and I were born we were born prematurely, we were born early, 11 weeks early to be exact. Being born premature was a real shock to my parents but the bigger shock was that I was diagnosed with a disability called Cerebral Palsy. This is a disability that is physical and affects my walking. Of course though people don’t realise that being disabled affects me emotionally as well.

Being positive is something that has kept me going throughout my disability but throughout my normal life also. The importance of positivity for me is that if you have a positive mind it in return gives you a positive life.

Now that we have got the soppy bit out of the way, here’s 10 ways to stay positive:

The Ugly Side of Beauty

Hey Guys,

Today I want to talk about something I have recently became very aware of & that is the harmful chemicals & toxins used in beauty products.

Researchers in the U.S. have found that 1 in 8 of 82,000 ingredients used in personal care products are hazardous industrial chemicals. Many of these harmful substances are used to clean industrial equipment, stabilize pesticides and grease gears.I think we can all agree that these are not things we want in our moisturisers or shampoos.

Some products also contain carcinogens which have been linked to causing cancer, neurotoxins which can cause damage to the brain and nervous system and reproductive toxins which impair the ability to reproduce and can cause damage to the offspring itself.

Thankfully things like Formaldehyde (carcinogen and irritant found in nail products, hair dye, fake eyelash adhesives & shampoos.) and hydroquinone (used for lightening skin. rated most toxic on the EWG’s Skin Deep database, and linked to cancer and reproductive toxicity) are banned in the EU & UK.

However words such as “natural” &"organic" have no legal definition. Companies are supposed to only use an organic label if all ingredients are certified-organic, but they can also say it’s “made with organic” if it a product contains a minimum of 70 percent certified-organic ingredients. 30% is still too much room for dangerous toxins.

How can I protect myself from these harmful chemicals & toxins?

My Skincare Routine- 50th Post!

Hey Guys,
HAPPY 50TH POST!
Thats insane!

Recently my skin has been a lot better than usual , compared to this time last year its in a lot better condition too. I never really had a skin care routine before but I think I have finally found the products that work well for me.

Hopefully you enjoy!

Exfoliator - St.Ives Naturally Clear Apricot Face Scrub

I use this once a week to keep my skin exfoliated.

Whenever my skin is acting up or whenever my foundation

doesn't apply as well as it should.I know I need to a use this scrub. It makes my foundation apply flawlessly & prevents

June Favourites

Hey Guys,
I hope you all had a good weekend and are enjoying the lovely sun!

I feel like I haven't done a favourites in ages, so without further a do.
Here are my June Favourites

Music Monday : Song Lyrics

Hey Guys,

I was listening to some songs that I have recently stumble apon & fallen in love with. Then I started to question why I like these songs so much. One of the reason was the lyrics.

Here are my favourite lyrics from some of my favourite songs.

Daughter - Youth

"..if you're still breathing, you're the lucky ones.

'Cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs.."

There is something so hopeful in these lyrics. Even if you have been through a hard time, other people may have been through worse & you should count your blessings and call yourself lucky.

Marina & the Diamonds - Savages

"..Underneath it all were just savages hidden behind shirts ties and marriages.."

This song is very unusual & I think that's why I like it so much. I like the message behind these lyrics that even the people who seem civilised may not have very civilised thoughts or actions.

 

James Blunt - Bonfire Hearts

"..People like us we don't need that much just someone that starts, starts the spark in our bonfire hearts.."

 These lyrics set a lovely reminder that life is simple and we don't need materialistic things to be happy, just people we love.

Let me know some of your favourite songs & lyrics in the comments

Love always,
Nixie